I have been wondering about loss of connection today.
Not sure why.
I have lived in many different places and I have had good friends, great friends even, that I no longer speak to.
And I find it increasingly difficult to make friends.
I am an all or nothing kind of gal. Once I've made that connection I intend that it should stay. I try hard to make sure that it does stay.
Not sure why this is so one sided.
I think I'm fun and interesting enough to stay friends with. I have been my own friend for quite some time now.
It makes me wonder about perceptions. How is it that I come across? And for that matter do I read others correctly?
It's very confusing.
My husband's friend told me that he thought I was a snob when he first met me. After we talked about it we decided that it was because I was shy.
I am shy.
Most people who know me don't believe that. But I am a wall flower until I am comfortable with you.
I am also needy.
I am a second child. I crave attention and affirmation.
Anyway, it took me a while to love me, I can wait for the rest of the world to catch up.
One person at a time.