Friday, July 27, 2007

Lost Loves

I have been wondering about loss of connection today.
Not sure why.

I have lived in many different places and I have had good friends, great friends even, that I no longer speak to.

And I find it increasingly difficult to make friends.

I am an all or nothing kind of gal. Once I've made that connection I intend that it should stay. I try hard to make sure that it does stay.
Not sure why this is so one sided.

I think I'm fun and interesting enough to stay friends with. I have been my own friend for quite some time now.

It makes me wonder about perceptions. How is it that I come across? And for that matter do I read others correctly?

It's very confusing.

My husband's friend told me that he thought I was a snob when he first met me. After we talked about it we decided that it was because I was shy.

I am shy.

Most people who know me don't believe that. But I am a wall flower until I am comfortable with you.

I am also needy.

I am a second child. I crave attention and affirmation.

Anyway, it took me a while to love me, I can wait for the rest of the world to catch up.

One person at a time.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

A real vacation

My parents have given their grandkids the best present ever!

They are sending Tim and I away.

My dad called last week to say that he would like to treat us to an Anniversary trip. He is giving us money and he and my mom are flying up to play/stay with the kids while we are gone.

That's right.

You heard me.

Can you say all inclusive hotel in Xcaret Mexico?

Because I can.

Hasta la vista baby!

Monday, July 16, 2007

Mustang Timmy

Mu husband's girlfriend has been ill.

She has been at the "car doctor" for almost a month.

We had to take out a loan to repair her.

And now she's back.

And I thought she was all that he talked about while she was ill!

This is Tim's brain on Mustang.

"Hey babe." me.

"hey you know that I have my mustang back?" him.

"yes. Don't forget to move the laundry okay?" me.

"I won't. Did you know that the new headers make the car faster (or something like that)" him.

"okay, well I have to go now. Have a good day" me.

"oh I will, I am taking the Mustang over to , blah blah blah..." him.

I think you get the point.

He is absolutely obsessed!

I used to like mustangs.

Now I think I am a Corvette girl.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Whose God Do You Kill For?

So I received a bunch of Bush bumper stickers via email.
Most of them were pretty funny.
The one in the title was not.

There was another one about Bush creating the terrorists of tomorrow.

I am not sure why I am on a political bent but I can't seem to shake it.

I had a conversation with Tim last night about the next presidency and I think it was notably one of the only conversations/debates in which Tim was the optimist.

But I still feel only hope for the next administration. It can only get better right?

Tim relayed an NPR interview with Mrs. Obama that he heard yesterday. She sounds like she would make a great first lady. I intend to listen to it later.

Still hoping.

Monday, July 09, 2007

Second Class Citizen

I am coming to terms with it.

I try hard not to let it hurt too much.

I suppress my winces and painful twangs when I see evidence of it.

I understand that it is not an intentional slight.

This is not premeditated, nor is it intended to be hurtful.

It just is.

I further understand that I am not the first to feel this way.

I understand that there is a reason the term was created.

Daddy's girl.

I didn't understand it would hurt quite so much.


I still have one more chance.

Can you say...

Mama's boy?

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

I can't believe he commuted his sentence!

Here is Bush

Here is the law

(see how he is above the law? tricky hey?)

Our forefathers are rolling over in their graves and my blood is boiling.

Don't get me wrong I knew he was going to pardon the man. (and he will) BUT COME ON!!!!!

You handpicked the F'in prosecutors let them do their jobs! At least pretend you understand the justice system and the system of checks and balances.

and if he was going to commute anyone's sentence he really should have thought about